Meditation for Perfectionists – Tuesday October 20, 2020
A Gracious God
Psalm 145:8: “The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.”
“How do I know God isn’t mad at me?” I still ask myself this question occasionally, even though I’m less obsessed with performance, unhealthy people pleasing, and “good deeds.” Sometimes I worry that my human imperfections and inadequacies displease God: and my restlessness threatens to rob my peace. However, this morning I received the following reassuring answer to my question.
I know God isn’t mad at me because he didn’t forsake me when I was deep in the throes of work addiction and perfectionism. God wanted me to be healthy. Patiently he waited for me to decide to reverse my direction. Since he stood beside me in those ugly times, then surely he is with me now as I continue to pursue balance and health. He isn’t angry with me for failing to achieve flawless thoughts, feelings, attitudes, or actions. I can never attain spiritual perfection in this
“You know that about me, don’t you, Lord?” I responded. “And still love me. Help me as I cease striving to make it all right. You are the unerring one. I know I’m righteous in your eyes because of what Jesus did on my behalf.
My heart is grateful.
Lord, you are gracious, kind, compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.
In this reality I rest.
Copyright Joan C. Webb
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